Where am I heading???
Dear diary,
What has happened to me...??
Kya ho gaya hai muje,kya ban gai hun main...
Everything irritates me..Laughing, shouting, talking irritates me..I have actually become too rude to myself...Failures and waiting for things to click are the only two things going on in my head...I am bored of myself.. Can not say these things to others ....Can not say what I feel ,what is bothering me??Obviously I am disappointed.. of myself..I am walking alone but can not see any way out..
Only because I am not getting what I am expecting from life..
Waiting for success is really difficult... I definitely agree that I am waiting for success to achieve what I dreamt for..
I started following my dream after gathering so much courage that can not be explained in words..so failing or even the fear of it is disturbing me...It's making me restless..
Dear diary,What is next ??You know me..I usually don't loose hope easily, I donot give up..Rather I never give up at all..What should I do with these negative feelings cropping in my head..while I am waiting for things to fall in place.....I need some direction..I am currently not finding a way...
Dear Diary, don't you think, I am talking weird..I am behaving weirdly..Kya karun??
But can't leave my dream in halfway...Have to somehow again gather all the broken pieces and start putting efforts..and keep on nourishing a plant that is not giving me any fruits whatsoever...I am sad..but will not leave my dream...I can't..because in that case I will do total injustice to my own dream...Whenever it was something to do with my dreams,my aspirations..I myself was least interested.. I was negatively biased and indifferent towards my own aspirations..They were never important..but now that atleast I am moving towards my dream,I have something to call my own. Although I am not successful as yet but hope definitely still exists and I will achieve success as well...I know I keep on losing hope,then again I counsel myself to carry on..but one thing is sure,I absolutely agree that journey is going to be damn difficult..nobody said that following a dream and achieving it will be a cake walk..but I must confess handling emotional turbulences in our own heads is really difficult and heartbreaking..but I will continue and never ever stop to pursue my own silly little dream...😇😇😇😊😊💞
